Do you really want to make me cry?
Seriously though, the lack of integrity in people will drive me to my wit’s end someday. I have this unfortunate tendency where I actually listen to people and genuinely believe that they’ll do what they claim they will. And if or when they don’t, the experiences vary, all the way from disappointment to rage. I think it’s OK, as long as I control myself. (Ps. 4:4)
Anyways, what then do we do with the biggest promise-maker of them all? I know that God has made a lot of promises to me, and I’m expecting Him to do what He said He would. I can see it now. . .me, on some sort of deathbed, whatever that might happen to be, freaking the crap out like I do yelling,
God promised ___, and ______ ,
and ____ ____ _____!!!
He hasn’t paid up, so I CAN’T DIE!
He knows EVERYTHING, so if He made that promise
knowing that I might die here and now, then He’s a LIAR!!!!!”
(Very dramatic, and excessively unfortunate)
You know when you start yelling at someone and you’re just being mean, and they come across as so incredibly gracious with you because they understand what you’re feeling? They just stand there and take it with that sympathetic smile that makes you want to punch them in the kidneys? I can see me opening my somewhat dead eyes to see Jesus standing there with that look on His face. I just died, freaking out because I didn’t see something that God promised! (I probably would have lived if had just mellowed out, mind you, but the stress was too much on the old body!)
Well, Jesus with His gracious smirk just looks at me and says,
This is my reaction to one of the scariest passages in the Bible, Hebrews 11:39