I have a relatively large to do list collecting dust on my desk right now. I have goals, homework, things to read, people to talk to, and I have to admit, it’s getting done slowly, but I didn’t get jack done tonight. I’m probably going to make a few of you sick (I’m expecting Katdish to be disappointed in this one, so I’ll apologize now. . . sorry friend) but I got distracted from my homework and writing project tonight with American Idol. I know, I can hear a few scoffs, and am seeing a few sideways glances, but I had to. It was an enjoyable night with my roommates.

I have this love-hate relationship with pop-culture, because there is so much out there that is kitsch, and really, there’s just a lot of garbage out there that has too much skin showing, too many swears (the random few just make me happy) and then there’s stuff that takes advantage of people. American Idol doesn’t swear, but I’m pretty sure I saw more skin tonight than I’ve seen in months, and really, we just make fun of people who have a dream, so I shouldn’t support the show, but there I was tonight, pointing and laughing just like the rest of them (not just the people I live with, everyone).

Anyways, this is what I have to say: I love Paula. She is a wonderful person who probably overdoses on some sort of stimulant before every show, but she does something that I suck at, the woman looks for the best in everyone, and tries to build people up. Of course, she’s a bloody airhead, and says some things that I would think an over-emotional stoned teenager might say, but I’m OK with that. It’s even better if she starts jumping up and down screaming, because that’s just hilarious right there. Unfortunately, it’s easy to be critical, caustic and a little obnoxious. I think that acting like Simon, or even myself at times is facile and really, it’s a default mode that gets a rise out of people, and that works, because somewhere along the line, we decided that not only do we have to be critical, but we have to be asses about it as well.

Anyways, I think that if we can tell someone that they suck, but point them in a good direction, then we’re off to a good start. I love the idea of helping push someone along into God’s destiny, making sure that they have good council and a boost of confidence as they go.